Burns book..

Hey guys, Gossip Boy here

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Maybe you find my writing a bit pre teen lately.. maybe i turn to be young again.. or i my immature other side of me shown. Whatever it is: Last night i watch Lindsay Lohan movie Mean Girl. and its refresh me with the words “burn book”. if you watch that movie, you know what did i mean exactly. Its kind of book which to be write the person who was supposedly in our life and we want to shift-delate them out of our memory with the reasons. And its make me think am i owned this kind of book? or am i writen in at someone burn book? its kindda vise versa!

What actually the reason to be one of the list in the burn book? as you know i hate changes. people around me who changing in a way that i am not comfortable with will annoyed me. Sometime i just cant adapt with the changes. Sometime i feel like the changes make me upset. maybe its challenge me or maybe its just unacceptable. If i am in your burn book i just can say i’m sorry if i makes you feel uncomfortable. But i’m trying not to hurt people. i’m trying to please everybody. i’m trying to be more humane each day and at the same time i want to be me. i hope i’m not changing to be someone else just to please them.

this is kindda Gossip Girl series when I will start writing the person who lately were in my burn book list. i will tell you every person who used to be important in my life since last year but this 2009 that person is changing and be the list of my burn book. Wait!! or to ditch me is one of their wishlist 2009? Who know..

I had one best friend i always refer to whatever whenever it is. The person who i sharing everything. the dark secret or the shining event. the one who i trusted. The one who i treat as my little brother. let me called him my little J. Well.. little J is also bff to my lover. he also the one who responsible with my relationship with my lover. Last year.. i did well in his diploma and further degree at main campus. we are far away. when laut china selatan be the ocean between us. End of 2008, i’m back. but i feel like he gradually changing to another person everything is change. Its a BIG changes. Its not that he is dead. the old him is dead. the new him is bad. and now i’m sad, I had a period missing the old him. He is my best friend. Always be there for me. And i’m trying to be with him all the time. keep on giving him a chance so he can back the way he is.But now he is dead. I dont even know him. He found the best friend of his dreams and his priorities changed. He prefer drugs than a solid friendship. I was back to square one. “Who will be my next friend?” I asked myself.It’s hard to admit but I wasn’t interested in becoming close to anyone. It was a case of self loathing and a fear of loss. My little J is gone.

My gossip Girl series keep on rolling when i lost my Venessa. My best friend who i know her almost 8 year also change. We was best friend. but in some circumstances, I lost my interest to be her best friend. She turn to be less responsible. You know.. when we are best friend we should responsible to whatever happen. either to share or to pampered whenever you thing you should. She just lost that intuition.

Of couse if we are bestfriend we expect to be the first one to know.. not the last. To be the last sound like we are not important. Your so called bestfriend is important. unless he is not your bestfriend anymore. She also changing. After she been taken she is changing. After she met her true love she is changing. Yes i’m abselutly happy for her whe she found he true love but well… she changes. and i’m preaty sure her status made her changing. There is a border between me and Vennessa..the border which make she be in the list of Burn book. I just hope she made a right decission. decission to be with her lover. The one she will spend her life forever with. to be her family.

Of course..i’m not that person. I just her best friend. She said she can manage to handle between friendship and a soulmate-relationship. But she is wrong. She cant. She failed. We cant be best friend like we used to be. But i always be there whenever she need me.

I hate this part right here. the part that make me feel losing a friend but not actually say good bye.. the just fade away.. no more laugh.. no more jokes.. its just a solitaire feeling. we we should hangout with other friend but we realise one of them we missing.. and the different is really affected.

Look. I dont have a good family to proud to. i dont have a good family to talk or to share. I used to grown up with my friend as my parent. My friend makes me proud. My friend makes the meaning of my life. With my friend as my teacher.I dont want to lose my friends.. maybe i’m not fit enough to winning this competition.


xoxo,

You know you love me..

The Gossip Boy.

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Well.. tagged by corecheck.. here is my quote :)
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1. Put your iTunes, MP3, MP4, Windows Media Player, etc. on shuffle.
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS.
4. Tag 10 friends.
5. Everyone tagged has to do the same thing.
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IF SOMEONE SAYS 'ARE YOU OKAY' YOU SAY?
Relax, Take it Easy by Mika

HOW WOULD YOU DESCRIBE YOURSELF?
The man who can't be moved by The Script

WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL?
The Look Of LOVE - Diana Krall

HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?
Give it to me - by Madonna

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE'S PURPOSE?
Stay by Estrella

WHAT'S YOUR MOTTO?
No Drama by Mary J. Blige

WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
You are So Gay - Katy Perry

WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?
Its My Life - No Doubt

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?
Cry - Mandy Moore

WHAT IS 2 + 2?
Shake it by Metro Station

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BEST FRIEND?
Hot stuff by Craig David

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?
Swing-Swing by The All American Reject

WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?
Wonderful World by James Morrison

WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
Love Lockdown - Kanye West

WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?
Aku Cinta Padamu by Sheila Majid

WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?
My Immortal by Evanescene

WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST??
Mucha Cha - Chelo

WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST FEAR?
Never there by Cake

WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST SECRET?
Secret - Maroon 5

WHAT DO YOU WANT RIGHT NOW?
Easier to lie - Aqualung

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?
No need the Sun to Shine - Gabrielle

WHAT WILL YOU POST THIS AS?
PAPARAZI by Lady Gaga
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Recaps: 2009 Resolution

Hey guys, Gossip Boy here

Your one and only source in to the scandalous lives of Ampang boys elite..

Its already February..How is 2009 new resolution? Any change? or still stick with all nasty bad habit? Its been a long time for gossip boy comes with fresh new issues.. whats new? Lets start with the new year resolution. We start with our fav nasty bitch miss ferryna van der Woodson.

Quitting smoking? FOR REAL?!! Some people maybe find it unrealistic but she bring it for real.. but for good or just for sake.. who know.. but dat bitch is already prove it!! Its survival of the fittest for the young girlon the Ampang. The only strong come out alive, Cigrates no more.. Thanks for your bday party..Thats HOT!!

Talking about the fittest girl, nana and luke is already engaged. Congratulation. we are happy for her. and later Luke will back to Londan until the end of this year and get married. Just goes to show you that miracles can happen, especially in the greatest city in the world. All you need is love.

How about Lil J? again.. he drop this semester again. and everyone know the reason. this happen when you believing the wrong person. open your eyes wide. Its crazy how things turn out.. Come back to ampang dear.. you are far back from your track.Something we have waiting for a quite sometime. our old mimi.

There is only up and down for Blair and Chuck..A bit turnbeat for this coming trial.. and for Ruffus, after he give up his car to his brother. he currently driving mini cooper for work. Pete Archibald still looking for his future house and Georgina still keep partying all weekend..

So yeah. Last month was great. But really what else is new? . Here’s hoping? Also, now that should add more drama to our already drama filled world.

xoxo,
You know you love me
Blair The Gossip Boy.